Sometimes everybody cries

Ah, as I go back and read these old blog posts, I sometimes marvel at where I was, and how far I've come. Damn, I was practically emo. This is another from 2007, where I honestly think I was at my best as a poet. The flow of this one is really fun, and I really love the little dig at the end. 

sensibility

©2007 Gregory S Rodenius

you had the sense
i was too sensitive
you had pretense
where i was just pensive
we walked side by side
yet I was behind you
kindred spirits allied?
(well, I had to remind you)

now each step we go through
is in different directions
(indifferent to you –
i still find intersections)
but you choose to neglect
to reflect on our history
i deflect; you project
it’s all part of the mystery

of what brought us together
or what keeps us apart
a change in the weather?
or a change of the heart?
so while you change your mind
from one day to the next
i just sit here blind;
i can’t find the subtext

so i'll watch you go
and i won’t try to stop you
and i think you should know
that i won’t try to top you
but if there is a last word
in this path that you’ve taken
in case you haven’t heard, babe –
you were mistaken.

the title of today's post is from REM's wonderful song 'everybody hurts'. the song has always been one of my favorites, but i just listened to Paul Potts' Italian version of it, and it just blew me away. brought tears to my eyes, actually. it's one of the best musical arrangements i've ever heard, and his voice is beautiful. i think that even if i hadn't known the original english lyrics, it would have made me cry. if you haven't heard it, i strongly recommend that you go try to find it.

i wrote that poem (well, most of it) a while back, but didn't feel it was appropriate to post at the time. but i kinda like it, so now that it's 'safe' i thought i'd throw it up here for your perusal. i imagine a lot of people who have known me over the years have a lot of different opinions of me, some good, some bad... maybe some both(!), but there is one thing that is almost universally misunderstood: i'm a hell of a lot stronger than you think. and while it might have taken me a long time to get here, and in some ways i had to fight against YOU (you know who you are - or aren't, since you don't read this shit. lol) to do it, i'm pretty fucking proud of who i am.